I have been balls out tired as of late, and to be honest, I have no idea why. Maybe I am not getting enough sleep? Who knows, I've always been a squirmy wormy, even when mark is there to "bear spoon" (think bear hug..only spoon (?)) me into slumber. Anywho, I woke up today and made it JUST in time for work (eek)! I also got paid today and **drumroll please** paid of my Capital One! I feel so accomplished and relieved. We still have other debts to pay off of course, but knowing that I came out here, got myself a job, and knocked the digits off that annoying damn near 3,000 balance by myself is just...another reason to feel blessed. I know Mark changed me for the better, so I can't thank the Lord enough for bringing us to where we are now...a loooong ways from stolen glances and bad flirtation over the bank counter :)
I used to be so careless with my paychecks and reckless with my credit cards (as Mark, he used to ask his manager to waive my overdraft fee's..before he even KNEW me!) and now I don't even use them (except for gas and groceries, which we know we can pay off right away). Thank you Jesus! I am very much looking forward to the weekend.....next week I am taking my licensing exam, and then my sister is coming to visit!
<3
P.S. No picture, because...well....no picture :-p
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
never
Never in my life have I had someone be hesitant towards me about our friendship. I'd be lying if I said it did not bother me, but the truth is....I'm not about to let it. Those who know me, know who I am and what I stand for. And so...I will proceed with much caution.
Lies have been told, jealousy and contempt have been expressed, and well...I don't feel I should apologize for being happy, even to those who aren't. Happiness is a state of mind. Am I miserable Mark is gone? of COURSE! But I have too much going on and too many things to come that are making time go by quicker. My husband works day in and day out, is woken up in the middle of the night, gets little to no sleep...and still manages to keep in contact with me on a regular basis. When people make comments like "oh well, I guess my husband just works harder," or "oh, I don't think your relationship is normal" and "I don't want to hear about how much he calls or writes," then I am further more convinced I not only have it good, but I am also envied for that and that alone. I am not mean, I don't tell lies about people, I have a big heart, I choose to see the good in people....but if someone is going to spread lies, or hate me because I have a strong marriage, then that person is not a good friend, and I have no business trying to cultivate that friendship. Aren't good relationships about being able to share your happiness with others and lean on them when you are in need? So wait....you get to lean on me, and get my support but...God forbid I cry tears of joy because my husband was able to call on a day I realllly needed to hear his voice? Nu-uh. No way. I am nice, and downright naive sometimes...but never stupid. I digress...proceeding with caution.
the plus about today? a phonecall from my love, a phonecall from my bestie, and well...take out thai food from a local restaurant. I am being a couch potato and totally loving it!
Lies have been told, jealousy and contempt have been expressed, and well...I don't feel I should apologize for being happy, even to those who aren't. Happiness is a state of mind. Am I miserable Mark is gone? of COURSE! But I have too much going on and too many things to come that are making time go by quicker. My husband works day in and day out, is woken up in the middle of the night, gets little to no sleep...and still manages to keep in contact with me on a regular basis. When people make comments like "oh well, I guess my husband just works harder," or "oh, I don't think your relationship is normal" and "I don't want to hear about how much he calls or writes," then I am further more convinced I not only have it good, but I am also envied for that and that alone. I am not mean, I don't tell lies about people, I have a big heart, I choose to see the good in people....but if someone is going to spread lies, or hate me because I have a strong marriage, then that person is not a good friend, and I have no business trying to cultivate that friendship. Aren't good relationships about being able to share your happiness with others and lean on them when you are in need? So wait....you get to lean on me, and get my support but...God forbid I cry tears of joy because my husband was able to call on a day I realllly needed to hear his voice? Nu-uh. No way. I am nice, and downright naive sometimes...but never stupid. I digress...proceeding with caution.
the plus about today? a phonecall from my love, a phonecall from my bestie, and well...take out thai food from a local restaurant. I am being a couch potato and totally loving it!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
all i can say after today is...
...thank GOODNESS! The Lord is great. Life is still good, but I'm missing Mark like CRAZY! <3 I'm also looking forward to working out again more regularly and sticking to my resistance training. I can do this!
Friday, March 25, 2011
algo que me dejo pensando....
"The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being"- Tenzin Gyatso
Tengo cantidades de compasion, pero hay personas que simplemente niegan ver la verdad ...y la verdad siempre nos libera.
Como siempre, pidiendole a Dios que continue bendeciendo nuestras vidas..y las de los que queremos
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Weekend update :)
The halfway party was absolutely wonderful. My friend Becca drove down a little bit early so we could get ready together before heading over to the party. We went and got our hair done by my friend Shelly -after she did me a solid and squeezed us both in before another appt she had a 5:15. Nothing too major, just some styling and product. Shelly is a great friend and the fact that she works at an awesome salon and is an is an even more awesome hairstylist, well..that is just a plus!
The inspiration Hornblower was breathtaking, and astonishingly romantic. That was the bitter part of my bittersweet evening. I couldn't feel like it was a total loss though because I saw a few friends, met a few new ones, and enjoyed sharing stories between my sweet mother in law and some of the new wives we met. The wine was lovely and never stopped flowing, and although my heart ached for mark, the evening was most definitely a success. Life truly is good.
Today was great. I got to sleep in until about 9 am, and then I woke up and found Marleen and Aunt Treasure watching t.v. with a fresh pot of coffee on. I have been so spoiled by these remarkable women. Every single time I got up to do a dish, or tried to help set the table, or pick up a tab at the restaurant, they have persistently begged me to leave it be and let them take care of me so I can continue to take care of bills, savings, and well, still have a little bit to indulge with :) I have enjoyed their visit so much! After Breakfast, Marleen and I went to my Church for the eleven o' clock mass, which was beautiful. I cried like a baby, because each time I lay out my "burdens" to the Lord, I realize that...in this pro and con list that is life, i have so much more on my Pro list :) I am truly blessed...To have a man who gained faith and grew in faith right along beside me, who loves me, who lets me know how much he loves me everyday, who calls me every week, who supports me when I am driven to study for school and finish another class towards my license...and also to have such a wonderful family who takes care of me and visits me so frequently. And lastly, great friends....who can understand and not resent my busy schedule, my innate ability to be a scatterbrained forgetful Fran, and well, who are simply there. I can't tell you how many phone calls, e-dates, skype sessions, movie dates, field trips, and spiritual moments I have shared with each and every one of the important people in my life. And the amount of encouragement I have received....well, I have never felt more loved, more missed, more worthy of all I have that is good...
The Lord is remarkable, and on that note...
Dear God, couldja throw a good night of sleep my way? If you're too busy, it's cool...that's why you created coffee...right? Wahhh, waaaaahhhhhhhhh.
..Hey you, the one judging me for joking around with the big Guy...him and I have a pretty good relationship, and well....we cool.
Sincerely,
Mari
The inspiration Hornblower was breathtaking, and astonishingly romantic. That was the bitter part of my bittersweet evening. I couldn't feel like it was a total loss though because I saw a few friends, met a few new ones, and enjoyed sharing stories between my sweet mother in law and some of the new wives we met. The wine was lovely and never stopped flowing, and although my heart ached for mark, the evening was most definitely a success. Life truly is good.
Today was great. I got to sleep in until about 9 am, and then I woke up and found Marleen and Aunt Treasure watching t.v. with a fresh pot of coffee on. I have been so spoiled by these remarkable women. Every single time I got up to do a dish, or tried to help set the table, or pick up a tab at the restaurant, they have persistently begged me to leave it be and let them take care of me so I can continue to take care of bills, savings, and well, still have a little bit to indulge with :) I have enjoyed their visit so much! After Breakfast, Marleen and I went to my Church for the eleven o' clock mass, which was beautiful. I cried like a baby, because each time I lay out my "burdens" to the Lord, I realize that...in this pro and con list that is life, i have so much more on my Pro list :) I am truly blessed...To have a man who gained faith and grew in faith right along beside me, who loves me, who lets me know how much he loves me everyday, who calls me every week, who supports me when I am driven to study for school and finish another class towards my license...and also to have such a wonderful family who takes care of me and visits me so frequently. And lastly, great friends....who can understand and not resent my busy schedule, my innate ability to be a scatterbrained forgetful Fran, and well, who are simply there. I can't tell you how many phone calls, e-dates, skype sessions, movie dates, field trips, and spiritual moments I have shared with each and every one of the important people in my life. And the amount of encouragement I have received....well, I have never felt more loved, more missed, more worthy of all I have that is good...
The Lord is remarkable, and on that note...
Dear God, couldja throw a good night of sleep my way? If you're too busy, it's cool...that's why you created coffee...right? Wahhh, waaaaahhhhhhhhh.
..Hey you, the one judging me for joking around with the big Guy...him and I have a pretty good relationship, and well....we cool.
Sincerely,
Mari
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Terror
My heart and thoughts go out to everyone affected by the disasters, and who it will still affect....How awful. What else is there?
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