never

Never in my life have I had someone be hesitant towards me about our friendship. I'd be lying if I said it did not bother me, but the truth is....I'm not about to let it. Those who know me, know who I am and what I stand for. And so...I will proceed with much caution.
Lies have been told, jealousy and contempt have been expressed, and well...I don't feel I should apologize for being happy, even to those who aren't. Happiness is a state of mind. Am I miserable Mark is gone? of COURSE! But I have too much going on and too many things to come that are making time go by quicker. My husband works day in and day out, is woken up in the middle of the night, gets little to no sleep...and still manages to keep in contact with me on a regular basis. When people make comments like "oh well, I guess my husband just works harder," or "oh, I don't think your relationship is normal" and "I don't want to hear about how much he calls or writes," then I am further more convinced I not only have it good, but I am also envied for that and that alone. I am not mean, I don't tell lies about people, I have a big heart, I choose to see the good in people....but if someone is going to spread lies, or hate me because I have a strong marriage, then that person is not a good friend, and I have no business trying to cultivate that friendship. Aren't good relationships about being able to share your happiness with others and lean on them when you are in need? So wait....you get to lean on me, and get my support but...God forbid I cry tears of joy because my husband was able to call on a day I realllly needed to hear his voice? Nu-uh. No way. I am nice, and downright naive sometimes...but never stupid. I digress...proceeding with caution.

the plus about today? a phonecall from my love, a phonecall from my bestie, and well...take out thai food from a local restaurant. I am being a couch potato and totally loving it!